I hav the most amazing boyfriend. As most of u all know lately my bipolar haa been a lil outa control espivally in the night hours, well today i had to just break down n spill it out to him. This man, this glorious, remarkable, understanding man, sat with me n listened while i cried n talked of such horrid self destrictive urges, and he stayed calm n loving and held me n wiped away my tears. He assured me im never going to be alone, my biggest fear, i push everyone away, i honestly hate myself who i am, and he loves me, dont understand but this man honestly LOVES me. He even got down on one knee and said one day he was gona marry me n by god hes starting a family with me.
I know this is the man i want to spend the rest of my life with, the man id give anything for, the man i love more than life itself. Im going to work endlessly everyday to beat my addiction n but this bipolar behind me, im done “embracing” it, fuck that im gona destroy it. Destroy it for Andy, destroy it for our furture family, but most importantly destroy it for me.
Im not gona lose this man, come hell or high water ill die before i let anything come between us.